Kho Gaya Ek Rishta Mera (I Have Lost A Relation)

In loving memory of my father. He passed away on 16.05.2012. May his soul rest in peace. Aameen.

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(Hindi version)

Kho gaya ek rishta mera

Kale badalon me kahi

Tez barish ki boondo ne

Chupaya diya use kahi

 ungli pakadkr meri

Chalna usne sikhaya

Ladhkhadai jab jab me

Duadna mujhe sikhaya

Uska saya ghane pedh jesa

Thandak wo de jata

Meri choti choti ankho me

Bade khwab wo jagata

Mere ansuon se

Aankh uski num ho jati th

Doli sajne ki baat pe

Laadli badi yaad ati th

Is khapat duniya me

Meri ek deewar thi

Bachati har khatre se mujhe

me beti  apne baap ki thi

samaj ki zanjeero ko

todha usne mere liye

annayaye k har pahad ko

chalanga usne mere liye

cheen liya khuda ne mujhse

sbse pyara rishta mera

yateemo ki fehris me

aane laga ab naam mera

kaap jati hu me

beshara yu hokar

dar lgta hai is duniya me

apne baap ko khokar

ab koi deewar nahi

akeli hu maidan me

toote phoote khwabo ko

jodh rahi hu me

cheen lo meri hr khushi

lauta do wo rishta mera

beti hu apne baap ki

kho gaya ek rishta mera

(English Version)

 I have lost a relation

Somewhere among the black clouds

Harsh raindrops

Hid it somewhere.

My finger, he held

And made me walk

When i stumbled

To run, he taught.

His shadow like a dense tree

Coolness  it radiated

In my small eyes

He lit big dreams.

My tears

Made his eyes moist

Watching a decorated palanquin

He missed her beloved.

In this ferocious world

I had my wall

Protecting me from all dangers

I , was my father’s daughter.

Chains of society

He broke for me

Every mountain of injustice

He jumped for me.

God snatched

My favorite relation

In the list of orphans

My name now comes.

At times , i shiver

Feel helpless

This world scares me

After losing my father.

Now there’s no wall

Alone, i am in the battle field

Lost, broken dreams

I am  recollecting.

Take away all of my happiness

Return me, my relation

I , am my father’s daughter

I have lost a relation.

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Esi hai meri maa ( She is my Mother)

The Hindi Version-

Mohabbat se uska dekhna

Mere dil me jhank lena

mere ankahe shabdo ko padhna

esi hai meri maa

Wo jo thand ki har raat me bhi

Apne deep ki lau se

mujhe sulaye

Wo jo kurkuri dhoop me thanda saya bankar ajaye

esi hai meri maa

Wo jo mere hath me lage kaante nikale

Mere zakhmo me kho kar,

khud ka dard bhul jae

esi hai meri maa

Toofan se darkar

jab me kaap jaaun

Apne seene se mujhe lagakr

Meri nind ko bulaye

esi hai meri maa

Nafrato ki aag

Uska Jazba na mitaae

har mosam, har rang me wo aage badhti jae

esi hai meri maa.

Mere kai saval

jo mere mann me sudbudayen

Ummid dilati hui

mujhe sabke javab de jaye

esi h meri maa

Mom jesi narmi uski

Chandi jesa rang

ehsas uska barish ke pani jesa

Taza krde jo mera mann

esi h meri maa

Har bandhan ko samet ti hui

Surile raag wo gati hui

mehkaati hai angan

apne anchal ki khushbu se

esi h meri maa

meri pehli kilkari pe

mijse zada khush thi wo

mere pehle qadam pe

mujhe aage bula rahi th wo

esi hai meri maa

uski awaz jab kaan me aye

samjho, ek mithas si ghul jaye

hassi uski kitni madhur

behti nadi ki kalkal jesi

esi h meri maa

Jo sirf maa hi nai

Baap ka farz bhi nibhati ayi

Ghane badalo ke andhero se

Aj tak ladhti ayi

esi h meri maa

Kya kahu me uske liye

jo mujhe is duniya me laai

Hath mera thama

Har Rasta dikhati ayi

Uske pyar se bandhkr

kitni haseen lagti hai ye duniya

Na koi fikar, Na koi shikan

Kyuki mere paas h meri maa

Esi hai meri maa

Esi hai meri maa

The English Translation-

With her love filled glance

She insights my heart

Reads my unsaid words

She is my mother.

Every chilling night

With the light of her love lamp

She lulls me asleep

In crispy sunlight, provides her cool shade

She is my mother.

Detracts the thorns in my palms

Loses herself in my wound

She forgets her own pain

She is my mother.

Scared of the storm, I shiver

Embracing me

She calls my sleep

She is my mother.

Fire of hatred

Doesn’t waver her will

In every season, every color, she marches forward

She is my mother.

Many questions

That tickle my mind

Giving me hope

She answers them all

She is my mother.

Her softness like molten wax

Her color like the moon

Her feeling is like rain water

Refreshing my soul

She is my mother.

Collecting all bonds

Singing a melodious tune

Perfumes the courtyard

With the aroma of her garment’s hem

She is my mother.

On my first chuckle

She was happier than me

On my first step

She was calling me forward

She is my mother.

When her voice enters my ears

As if, sweetness mixing in

Her laugh so melodious

Like a rivulet’s playful sound

She is my mother.

Who is not only a mother

Plays the duty of a father too

When dense clouds surround darkness

She kept fighting them off

She is my mother.

What should I say of her

Who brought me in this world

Held my hand

Showed me every path

Coiling in her love

How beautiful this world appears

No worry, no flinch of pain

Because I have my mother.

She is my mother.

She is my mother.

My Rock

”Dedicated to My only Brother who is my rock. Keeps me sturdy, zealous  and unscathed”

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Like a tiny bundle of joy
I came in your life.
Becoming your toy
Bringing you smiles.

As a toddler I crawled into your feet
Holding your legs ,trying to stand.
Entertaining you by my feats
Cracking smiles and joyous memories. 

As a younger sister
I was always pampered.
As an elder brother
You were always bothered.

You have seen me
Taking my first footstep.
You have seen
My first birthday bash.

You brought me
My first teddy bear.
You brought me
My first laughter.

You fought for me
And hid my faults.
You protected me
From dangers of all sorts.

Standing strong
When I was alone.
Standing tall
When sadness to me was flown.

Solving my mathematics problems
Writing my English essays.
Teaching me learning skills
Mentoring me in just the perfect way.

My non stop demands
Your unceased fulfilment.
My sulk for this and that
Your efforts to grant me all.

Sometimes I think
You are a superhero diguised as my brother.
Sometimes I think
I am the luckiest sister.

How can I forget the day?
when you raised your voice in favor of me.
How can I forget the day?
When you promised you’d bring the best in the world for me.

I ask myself
I must be different.
I ask myself
I must be really special.

Pure love comes with a twist
The shift into sibling rivalry.
fighting over small silly things
Sobbing and shouting amidst.

Tearing away the monochromatic life
Indulging into the rainbow of life.
Our adventurous evenings and pranks
Your maneuvered magic tricks ,endless fun to stand.

Wounded I returned home
You hurried to get me toned.
Your father-like counselling
That world is not a place to mourn.

One day you left for fulfilling life’s chores
Geographically distant but emotionally close
Holding your responsibilities from far you chose.

Each time you came home
Brought me gamut of gifts.
Ecstatic I’d be
Relishing with plentiful tids.

Now as a grownup young lady
I look up at you with respect.
You complete the meaning of HOME
You bring warmth in the core.

Today we might not be so close
Embellishment of childhood memories and fun ashore.
All that is still in my heart
You are my adorable brother.

Life is a little jerky
Reactions may change
Emotions however remain the same

I miss you Brother
I thank God to have exalted me with you.
I’ll be strong, I’ll live a good life
With all that you taught.