Never To Be A Woman Again

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She came in this world with a smile
Opened her eyes to people she’d call family
Cuddled, caressed and pampered
By kins.

When she was four
The trail of sacrifices began
Her toy was snatched
To be given to her brother.

When she was seven
She quietened her desire
For the expensive pen
They would call it useless.

When she was eighteen
She wanted to learn science
Unworthy she was proven
Forced into her dislike.

When she was twenty three
She wanted to teach
They found a match
Got her married.

When she was thirty
She yearned to fulfil her dreams
Thrashed by life faces
Shooed away her dreams.

When she was fifty
She knew it won’t make a difference
It won’t come back
It won’t work anymore.

Obediently, she let the funeral of her desires
Take a ride.
Bid them off to never call them again.

She fought , she failed.
She cried, she pained
She dreamed, she drained.

She cursed herself.
Never to be a woman again.

Accompanying Life

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One of my ULTRA FAVOURITE songs-

Main zindagii ka saath nibhaataa chalaa gayaa
I faithfully followed wherever life took me

Har fikr ko dhuein mein udataa chalaa gayaa
I blew every worry into a mist of smoke

Barbaadiyon  shok manaanaa fizuul tha
It was pointless to grieve about my destruction,

Barbaadiyon ka jashn manaataa chalaa gayaa
So I kept making a celebration of my destruction!

Har fikr ko dhuein mein udaataa chalaa gayaa
I blew every worry into a mist of smoke

Jo mil gayaa usii ko muqaddar samajh liyaa
Whatever came my way I considered to be my destiny

Jo kho gayaa mein usko bhulaataa chalaa gayaa
Whatever was lost to me, I kept putting out of my mind.

Har fikr ko dhuein mein udataa chalaa gayaa
I blew every worry into a mist of smoke

Gham aur khushi mein farq na mehsuus ho jahaan
That state where happiness and sorrow are indistinguishable

Main dil ko us muqaam pe laataa chalaa gayaa
That realm is where I kept pushing my heart

Har fikr ko dhuein mein uDaataa chalaa gayaa
I blew every worry into a mist of smoke.

Sublime Hope

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My thoughts pure as a white rose
From maligning them, I detest.

My destination is a bright star
From falling ,my steps I guard.

Embarking on my strong will
I trudge my path.

Loom of hatred and lies
Circling me around.

Unaware of how high I rise
My hopes shall keep me astound.

#A famous song in urdu, from a Pakistani Drama.