Rain of Agony

Soaking in the Rain.

Soaking in the Rain.

Every night, i watch the sky, adore at the vast beauty of it and wonder, are you watching it too? are we watching it together? You told me to look at the moon if i miss you. Here i am. I am looking at it. Are you looking at it too? It rained this evening and i let my soul drench in it because you once said, you loved rain. I watched the rain drops settling on my fingers, slipping across the center of my palm, paving their way to the ground, i tried to collect them, i closed my fist hard, very hard, but it slipped away. Reminding me of how destiny beautifully brought us together later tearing us apart. I watched the long leaves of the coconut tree flowing with the wind, forced to fall apart but they stayed their. Firm. Reminding me of how passionately close you brought yourself to me, fearing if i’d go. It felt cold under the rain. The water has penetrated deep, it removed all the mud over the buried memories. Echoing your name to me. Loud, very loud. The wind rushed upon the door, leaving it’s left pane open. Reminding me of how you walked through the door to greet me every morning. The splatter of raindrops in the courtyard made some music, reminding me of the melody of your voice.I saw a flower lying on the road. Crushed by the heavy waters. Reminding me of the first rose you gave me. I shivered at the lightning stroke. It was creepy. Not as creepy as the day when, i knew, i’d never see you again. I could combat these thunders. They were not as mighty as those gruesome dark nights when i endlessly sobbed and shouted your name loud, if my voice could reach you. Now, i whisper your name. It’s still the most beautiful sound for me. The only difference is, then, it used to cheer me up, now, it shatters me.

The rain has stopped. Everything is still. As still as my abandoned soul.

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Accompanying Life

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One of my ULTRA FAVOURITE songs-

Main zindagii ka saath nibhaataa chalaa gayaa
I faithfully followed wherever life took me

Har fikr ko dhuein mein udataa chalaa gayaa
I blew every worry into a mist of smoke

Barbaadiyon  shok manaanaa fizuul tha
It was pointless to grieve about my destruction,

Barbaadiyon ka jashn manaataa chalaa gayaa
So I kept making a celebration of my destruction!

Har fikr ko dhuein mein udaataa chalaa gayaa
I blew every worry into a mist of smoke

Jo mil gayaa usii ko muqaddar samajh liyaa
Whatever came my way I considered to be my destiny

Jo kho gayaa mein usko bhulaataa chalaa gayaa
Whatever was lost to me, I kept putting out of my mind.

Har fikr ko dhuein mein udataa chalaa gayaa
I blew every worry into a mist of smoke

Gham aur khushi mein farq na mehsuus ho jahaan
That state where happiness and sorrow are indistinguishable

Main dil ko us muqaam pe laataa chalaa gayaa
That realm is where I kept pushing my heart

Har fikr ko dhuein mein uDaataa chalaa gayaa
I blew every worry into a mist of smoke.